am i a bad friend or wat? is it because i hang out with my bf too much? is it because i’m too boring? my friends say that i shouldn’t make this situation a big deal, but it seems as if i’m the only one who cares if i lose them or not. maybe it is my fault that i’m not making enough time for them. it bothers me that they prefer to hang out with their other friends than me even when i’m around. whatever. they don’t care anyways i’m done with life
I’m so fed up with being judged all the damn time. You don’t even know me! You only know me as your friend’s daughter and that’s it! I understand there’s a party going on and you’re allowed to go wherever your heart desires, but you don’t have the right to go into my room and look through my stuff. You guys say that you came in just because you feel a little tipsy from the shots you took and that there’s just not enough space for you to be out in the living room. Don’t tell me to tell my parents to buy another house for extra space, ok? If you want to tell them that, then how about YOU tell them yourself? If you knew better, we would’ve moved a long time ago if we had enough money unlike you with your big house up in the hills. You then go on telling me how spoiled I am and how I have everything and I should be grateful. You don’t know how grateful I am for my parents, so you should never fucking tell me that I’m being an ungrateful daughter. After all that, you guys decide to interrogate me by asking questions about my boyfriend. It’s none of your damn business! And after asking me all these questions about him, you ask me how old I am. I AM FIFTEEN and I’m allowed to have a relationship with the opposite sex. If it’s not a problem for my parents then it shouldn’t be a damn problem for you too. I’m not pregnant, I’m not failing school, and I know what my priorities are, so don’t assume that by having a boyfriend, he will fuck up my life. If having a significant other has a negative impact, tell me why you’re with your husband then? It started with two then one more comes and next thing you know, five more ladies come in. They all decide to play poker in MY ROOM and let me tell you, my room is small and if I had to leave the room because it was so crowded, I don’t think you can get up to 10-15 people in my damn room. I decided that I had enough of all this bullshit and wanted to leave my apartment. I go to the door and one of my dad’s friend is blocking the door and wouldn’t let me get out. I’m not leaving the place to go meet up with my boyfriend and have sex and I’m not leaving to go smoke and drink. I’M LEAVING BECAUSE OF ALL OF YOU. I have to go to my grandparents’ house just to get away from all this commotion when in reality, I could’ve got some peace in my own room. Guess not, right? I’m just a kid; what do I know? It’s so hard to keep up this good reputation, but I’m seriously getting tired of it. Every time someone makes a ignorant remark to me, I have to sit there and smile and laugh like I’m not taking it to the heart when damn well, I am fucking done. I could’ve got up and yelled at all of you and told you to get the fuck out, but I didn’t for the sake of my parents. I can’t wait ‘till this “party” is over.
Women should be able to do things independently like walk home alone and not worry about being abducted and raped. What is wrong with people? Women already go through so much and it’s unfair how we have to be aware of our surroundings and be afraid of where we live because of the violence that goes on. Women are not objects. You can’t just steal us away from our dignity and pride and strip it away from us just because you’re an imbecile. We may be smaller in size and we may not be as strong as men, but we are not as weak as you think we are. We are all human and we have the natural rights of life, liberty, and property. It’s OUR LIVES that you are ruining, it’s OUR LIBERTY that you are taking away from us and yourself when you get caught, and our bodies, pride, safety, and happiness are OUR PROPERTY that you are invading. You have so much to do in the world. You can get yourself a job, an education, and a fine lady, but you decide to wake up and plan that today, you want to take a woman away from her dreams and hopes because you are too shallow to do anything good with your life. People who have intentions of committing these vicious crimes have no sympathy for not only women, but for humanity. Humanity is already bad as it is and these people are just making it worse. I want to live in a world where I can feel safe and not worry that something bad is going to happen to me, but that’s just life. Now that there is a rapist around where I live, I have to be concerned about my safety at all times as if my paranoia wasn’t abominable enough.
Anonymous asked: im glad you didn't win because your hella ugly anyways
thanks for telling me.
I ran for snowball princess and ended up losing. I wanted to run and win ever since last year, but since I was too shy, I never did. It just sucks seeing my posters ripped, on the floor, and being stepped on. It hurts. I didn’t have many posters and the ones that were posted up were the ones that counted the most, but people just didn’t understand. I wanted to win with my boyfriend, but sadly it didn’t happen. I’m proud of him though. :’) I’ve been feeling like shit for hours now. No one seems to care about my feelings. No one wants to comfort me and tell me everything is okay. It makes me feel like I have no one to turn to whenever things get hard. I feel worthless. I feel like I’m not worth anyone’s care. It would be nice to have someone check up on me other than my boyfriend. It would also be nice to finally get something I want without being taken away from me, but that’s just life. You win some, you lose some. All I can do right now is mope around and cry my feels out until I’m all better again. It’s just hard not being with my boyfriend throughout this whole process. I was looking forward to going to the snowball royalty meetings with him, dancing with him at snowball, etc. It’s okay, I guess. I’ll survive.